Knowing and Realizing

Is there a difference? Knowing something and realizing the effect..Knowing the consequences and suffering the consequences. There goes the saying, "man knows no pain unless pierced by the needle himself"..so many ways of illustrating..At this moment, I realized there is a difeerence..so there must be..a difference..

Understanding myself

When I am angry or faced with sudden problem, I do not scold it out, but rather just kept very quiet and sometimes grumbling of dissatisfaction deep inside the heart. Most of the time, I am just lost for words, but when it is so, the other party would have thought that I am damn damn angry, to the stage that I do not even want to talk. But the truth is I am just totally lost for words, mind blank, and just need to back off. Just realized at this very moment, that I am so since I was young. And at this very second my moment of backing off is bringing the car for a wash and typing this...on a sunny Sunday morning..

Wait

One of the thing I hated most is to wait. Really. No matter for whom or for what. Somehow throughout the years I have learnt to learn to wait. Maybe the inability to wait is due to my selfishness, leading to impatience..who in the world is born to be a better "waiter" - you would have always thought when you are needed to wait. "He wait is ok one..but I am in a rush".."He is used to waiting".. My impatience to wait - hate of being awkwardly alone while waiting - has caused me to become a person who is not punctual through the years..

What A World

If you are a pretty gal in a saloon, bossing around the stylist is an acceptable seen. But aunty in 60s doing that, what a pollution. Pity the hairstylist professionally entertaining the aunty client. Professionalism or hypocrite or no choice? Up to who you are asking. Only one thing for sure, that's the world all of us are seeing. You yourself to define.

To change or not to change?

It's tiresome living everyday up to people's expectation. Realized this long ago,but don't think I will be able to change myself. That's life.

Live a life of our own

Life is hard, we are left on our own to psyche up our own life..making it at least meaningful to live..at least to our own standard..

To or not to

Somehow I have taken years to decide whether to blog or not, just to remember things that I might not remember in years to come..

Bad day ... week actuallz

Still working, am really sick since last friday. Sore throat, throat infection, hope october will bring some better days.

First post

First post on blogger. Was watching A Step Into The Past on Astro,this is the first drama that I have watched years ago in Germany, in 2001, my first year in uni.