Understanding myself

When I am angry or faced with sudden problem, I do not scold it out, but rather just kept very quiet and sometimes grumbling of dissatisfaction deep inside the heart. Most of the time, I am just lost for words, but when it is so, the other party would have thought that I am damn damn angry, to the stage that I do not even want to talk. But the truth is I am just totally lost for words, mind blank, and just need to back off. Just realized at this very moment, that I am so since I was young. And at this very second my moment of backing off is bringing the car for a wash and typing this...on a sunny Sunday morning..