Starting point

Kundasang - actually a lot of things started here. Most important is the beginning of us. Why it is now so? Really I do not know how to explain. I don't even know how it ended so. My fault? I think so. But I really do not know how to mend our relationship. Is it to be mended. So many many times when I need to make decisions, one moment of thing that will flicker in my mind is that is this the most correct decision..what time be the subsequent outcome if I would be able to see like 20 years from now.. Just too many things..but sometimes..its irregardless as they would not have mattered in the first place.. Is this always so in relationships? Or more so one that would be ended..is it always thing do not matter anymore..