Many things have happened in the past few months.
Good and bad things. Think it's considered good as I still have the chance to write it here.
Had 2 car accidents in the past 3 months. One was in Waja hit by a careless lady driver. Smashed the driver door and window. But luckily I was not hurt at all.
2nd accident was hitting into a young little gal. More that this careless little gal was running across the Penampang main road without looking and just hit into the side of my car. the impact was bad that she ripped off my side mirror. For moment when I got off the car and saw one small kid lying on the road, I thought I have killed someone. At that very moment, just felt helpless and useless. When I saw her standing up, I realized then only God has done something. Now the gal is all fine and I can just say that this is all blessing and good luck after all.
Business wise has been good as well. Marina Court business has more than a five fold increase compared to last year when I just got back. A lot of things should have turned good as well with this change. Some did and some did not. Good thing is that I am too busy and has not have a break for more than a year. No weekends, no public holidays and all tied up. Hope things will get smoother.
Had a dinner with Vivian for her birthday. Birthday was on the 25th March but dinner was 31st. For 2 times when we went out for dinner and coffee, I was in a blank mind when I see mao mao. Most of the time I still miss her.. A lot of times thinking of things that have happened between us and things that made us to break up. Even until today I can't be sure of one reason..or maybe it has too many reasons. I have got a term that is the nearest to this. Burden of circumstances. Circumstances like surroundings, families, previoues quarrels, previous hurts..I miss her but when we see each other, the thoughts of hurts come back into picture and that made me always speechless when seeing her. I always felt that she has looked all through into me..I can not more put up a confident and proud image in front of Vivian. This has always been the feeling when I keep pondering if we could still be together..
One thing I really would like to change. I have made it a resolution to change this since I got back. It is also vivian that has made me to realise that I have to change this. Being too proud and high ego. Sometimes even till being rude to everyone besides me. I really hate that. I am just sorry I hurt people with this. This also made me to live a stressful life. Hope I can change this so much.
Few girls came by in the last few months. One is attractive. We just click. But I am just not so ready to be in a relationship. She thought is her problem, but really it is not so. Maybe should just let is pass.. I don't know. She's said, when there is hesitation, it will not work. Will I regret?
I would really like to count my blessings. My good health, my family, my dog, my friends, my work. A lot of hurdles, but at least everything and everyone is still fine. That's enough. Things could be worse.. I will always keep this in mind.
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